alright mama.

going on a date this tuesday. at the end he said "alright mama, i'll see you then." sounds totally lame, but i think it makes him cooler because he has the confidence to say something like that slash be himself. this is a student set up date, so we'll see what happens. never hurts, right?

my freshman year friend, andy, texted me in the middle of the night which led to an hour long conversation. so good but so tired.

played scategories with some of the house tonight. jordan tried to put "heaven" for "things with spots"-- she got rejected.

earthquake tonight! 5.6 centered in menlo park. the students were a little scared.

castro is closing down tomorrow. no, not fidel, the small neighborhood a mile away. it's such a big deal that even the new york times is talking about it.

vegan oatmeal chocolate chip cookies.

i have never tasted a better oatmeal chocolate chip cookie (even though the pointer sisters put up a good fight). i changed the recipe around to be vegan so one of the girls in the house (amanda, she's fabulous) could eat them. i think that's what made them so chewy and yummy. here it is...

emily's vegan oatmeal chocolate chip cookies
1 c. flour
.5 tsp baking powder
.5 tsp baking soda
.25 tsp salt
2 c. oats
8 tbsp canola oil margarine
.5 c. packed brown sugar
.5 c. sugar
.5 c. apple sauce
.25 c. maple syrup
.5 tsp vanilla extract
.75 c. [vegan] chocolate chips

350 degrees. stir together flour, baking powder/soda, salt and oats. in a bigger bowl use a mixer to combine canola oil margarine, brown sugar, sugar. add in apple sauce. drizzle in the maple syrup and vanilla. add in flour, baking powder/soda, salt and oats mixture. mix in chocolate chips. line cookie sheet with wax paper. place them on the sheet using a spoon. bake for twelve minutes. when you pull them out, they might not look done but they're the kind that will cook more when they are out of the oven. sooooo good.

i've been flossing.

not the most exciting world series. boo.

incredible character development on abc's brothers & sisters. hands down, my favorite show on tv. many of the issues hit home for me-- i was paige's age when my parents divorced, so tonight was full of tears.

i am not good at flossing. in fact, i usually only floss after popcorn or corn on the cob. on friday i went to the dentist and my hygienist informed me about the reach access- it's so cool; easy to get the back teeth and you use your bite instead of fingers. i am now flossing every day... i'll let you know when it's a permanent habit.

leaving for boston on thursday night. ex.ci.ted.

for mac people: guess who has leopard? I DO!! dbj and go out and get it-- totally worth it. automatic backup (with an external hard drive!) is reason enough.

who loves loves loves kaiser commercials? have you seen the one with the young boy who is in the suit talking about his "problems"? it's hilarious. kaiser is ingenious for using allison janney (cj cregg!)

part 1 of 2 on tim ferriss' bull shit.

i was going to start posting some of my [public] confessions, but it will have to wait for 1. me to get some more courage and 2. me not to be pissed off about the below topic.

perhaps i am a little over the top? maybe i don't give people enough room to change and grow? or i'm naive? maybe i am just not that intelligent? when i get passionate and have strong opinions about things, i can't let things go (if you know me, you definitely know this to be true). so, as you can read, this blog has been a place for me to unleash, let go, scream, yell, be pissed and want to drop four letter words that begin with the letter F.

for the last two years, i have made a conscious choice to not eat at carl's jr. besides the fact that i don't normally eat fast food, i have intentionally made this choice because of this AWFUL commercial. yes, i know that it's probably not making an impact on carl's jr's revenue because little old me isn't eating their food. however, i firmly believe that when we buy something, we are making a stance and saying "yes, i believe in you! i support you! i agree with you!" sometimes these things can be good or bad. and in this case, no thanks carl's jr, i'll buy my [veggie] burgers somewhere else.

well, today i am expanding my thoughts on this topic. you see, i not only think we vote with our monies, but i am beginning to realize that we vote with our time. [duh?] i read a lot of blogs, magazines and news on the internet. in this specific area of pop/media culture i would say that because i am not paying for these things, i am voting for them when i spend hours a day participating in them, rather than _______ [fill in the blank]. so... this can only lead to the latest thing that i am letting go of, cutting off, deleting off my RSS feed, dropping four letter words that begin with the letter F at the computer screen, etc. etc.

his name is tim ferriss and he is the author of the book, "the four hour work week." there is/was huge buzz about this guy in the blog world, so of course i picked up the book and read it. then i put his blog on an RSS feed and awaited his posts hoping to see what new and juicy information this [young] guy had to offer. in part 2 i will explain why his book isn't for me and how i would rather just stick with GTD by david allen. anyway, i digress.

today tim ferriss posted about the art of letting bad things happen but i just couldn't get past the weapons of mass distraction or the video at the bottom. well, mostly, i couldn't get past where it read: "Weapons of Mass Distraction: boys love guns. I’m sorry, but that’s how we are wired..." first of all, tim, are boys really wired this way or do we play into the stereotypes that they are? and if you don't love guns and you are a boy, what does that make you? this reminds me of the absolutes in wild at heart or captivating by john and stasi eldredge.

i might be overreacting. i might be over analyzing. i might be throwing out a good thing. but after watching the video TF posted today, i can't find it in me to want to continue to learn from all that he has to offer.

i fully believe that learning involves hearing from both sides (and by both i mean all because most of the time there aren't only two sides)... ya know, watching fox news AND aljazeera with a lot of bbc in between. getting the full picture. but there are things that i just can't vote for, whether it's with my time or money. guns, capital punishment, war... (writing that down made me think about how i really need to change my political status) those are a few of them for me. what are they for you?

i can't seem to think of another side to this minuscule detail that probably doesn't represent TF in any way, shape or form. but i'm latching on to it, it's what i do. someone, teach me how to change! i am just so bothered by guns. watch the video, you'll see... TF doesn't even do anything irrational. just like some people like paris hilton washing a car in a leather outfit, some people will be entertained by TF shooting guns. i, however, am not. and now i'm voting to spend my time differently. with a little less tim ferriss around.

ps. if you want to read why the rest of his post is BS, see what anna has to say.

free association.

here's a site that's been providing free association exercises for some time. this is what i came up with:

Las Vegas :: the song by sara bareilles
Linus :: wet blanket
Struck :: by lightening?
Movie :: so many good ones that i want to see right now!
Anxious :: about boston!
Bandit :: huh?
Picks :: like a guitar pick? diana needs a guitar pick.
Lasso :: no thanks.
Dinner :: i am so full.
Bargain :: shopper.

the weather in sf is perfect.

emma and i went to the zoo this morning. enjoyed the grizzly gulch!

my test on thursday went well- i missed two.

if you like scrabble, then you will like scrabulous.

some rad people are walking across the state to oppose capital punishment... they were just in santa barbara.

ten days until boston. if there is a game 7, it will be during my flight over.

lightsout!

lights out san francisco happened last night from 8-9pm. how cool is that? both the golden gate and bay bridge lights even went out.

dbj*: lights out america is coming to a city/county/state near you.
march 29, 2008.

here's to living in the greenest city in the country (world?). cheers!

*don't be jealous.

61 miles is good enough for me.

two weeks ago my mom and barry rode 135 miles over two days through the wine country. my mom thought a century (100 miles) would be fine. at 56 miles she called and said she had terrible knee pain. my mom is a nurse (yes, and a lawyer) so she knows pain-- no messing around with her (ask me about getting my shots as a kid- hell!). the lady who picked her up in the sag wagon told her she should have had advil on her. my gracious mother ignored her instead of saying, "listen lady: i know pain. this isn't advil pain. this is see my damn doctor and schedule an mri for monday pain." i probably would have said that. anyway, she made it to mile 61. we still cheered as she came in and we're glad we went to davis (which is, oddly enough, like visalia with 15k extra college students- no thanks! sorry mm!)

waiting with ice cream: tess-me-carter-sofia-courtney

seriously. sofia eating a "watermelon stick thingy."

after the race: up for finishing, down for not.

barry-me-mom-courtney-carter

pumpkin patch.

carter and courtney are up for the weekend to cheer on mom as she rides a century tomorrow. yah for being married ninety days and being together three thousand, two hundred and eighty five.


sofia and i carved together. i added her name to the back.


tess', courtney's x2, mine and sofia's.


i cut off a finger! love love love pumpkins with the five year old cousin.

feeling: sad, fear.

the current thoughts of this twenty three year old:

i'm not going to be a good counselor.
i'm going to fail this test.
i suck at listening.
i will never love.
i will never be loved.


this too shall pass.

c&c come tonight. it can only get better!