the anticipation of a terrible week...

..has turned out to be fantastic. i know we're only on tuesday, but the combination of the following has brightened up my [already bright] life:

pour some sugar on me playlists.
surprise flowers as a just because gesture.
fur coats, big hats and curling-iron-microphone dance parties.
surprise! you don't have to work tonight calls.
more handwritten notes off in the mail: signed, sealed and delivered.
two hour trainings that lead themselves.
visiting the torture room to heal my it-band before this weekend's half.
frozen yogurt conversations with laurel where we own our Crazy.

and i can hear so many of your voices in my head: "you, sweet emily, are exactly where you're supposed to be. " and i agree.

i LOVE twothousand twelve.

brings me back to my first clients.

i cannot wait to see this documentary. i miss late age adults and dementia so so much.



more info: you're looking at me like i live here and i don't.

thanks mag.

for your encouragement amongst the anxiety of tests and life and newness and change.

"Every one of us is called upon, probably many times, to start a new life. A frightening diagnosis, a marriage, a move, loss of a job...And onward full tilt we go, pitched and wrecked and absurdly resolute, driven in spite of everything to make good on a new shore. To be hopeful, to embrace one possibility after another- that is surely the basic instinct...Crying out: High Tide! Time to move out into the glorious debris. Time to take life for what it is." -Barbara Kingsolver

i love this quote, especially as my twothousand twelve feels a little bit like a new life. making good on a new shore... definitely.

for what it's worth.

"It's never too late, or in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. You can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best of it or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that stop you. I hope you feel things you've never felt before. I hope you meet people with two different points of view. I hope you live a life you are proud of, and if you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again." (quote from The Curious Case of Benjamin Button)

i wrote this in a card to someone at some point in the last two years and i found it saved in my drafts folder today. it was profound timing as i watch myself take courageous steps to start some things over in my life. new beginnings, even if it means something has ended, are [mostly] always good. i am filled with gratitude today, even while running on a low amount of sleep. [standard]

there's only one cow in my life.

and his name is angus andy. he's ginormous and lives in the kitch.

ch-ch-changes.

this morning i went on a long walk, came home and did a snow angel in my room. i'm not kidding: i did a snow angel in my room. not because there's snow, but because i can. in the last five years of living in san francisco, i've never been able to do a snow angel in my room.

there's other exciting things on the horizon and i am grateful in days like today that i can read texts that say, "you will never regret making this choice. i am one hundred percent sure of that. if it wasn't hard, it wouldn't be worth it. you are worth it."

twothousand twelve is going to be amazing and so worth it and full of joy. i am ready.

hello, 2012.

surprisingly, i'm going to partake in the resolution making. however, i started five days ago so in my mind this isn't a "new year" resolution, which means it's more likely to be accomplished. and i might have already made this goal five years ago and achieved it, so i know it's totally do-able.

from december twentysixth and for the next year, i'll be logging the next threehundred and sixtyfive days. no, not on here... by hand in my chartreuse moleskin.

ready, go.