Saturday, March 31, 2007

in case you're bored... can visit suerte, the pregnant mare or justin kan, a 23-year-old san franciscan. lifecasting? entertaining? bizarre? you decide.

Friday, March 30, 2007


1. impulse buy: james morrison
2. impulse interview: sim at nordstrom
3. impulse drink: lychee martini (lychee has a texture similar to what i imagine eyeballs to be like)
i'm so impulsive. okay, that's pretty much a lie. if you really know me, that is so not the case. however, i am working on my p-ness.

a new universal rule: if you are on the phone and the call is dropped, the person who made the initial call is in charge of the call back. that way you both aren't calling at the same time. now spread the word.

i learned the secret to getting rid of hiccups: lick your lips. it totally worked for me. maybe i should tell this girl.

looking forward to: damien rice, travis and john mayer.
dbj cause you can join me.

Thursday, March 29, 2007

be jealous.

the hot topics discussed: adoption, westmont politics, chapel/convocation, white people food, intellectual fellowship, being single but not alone, gender stereotypes and so much more. this means that the larsen-hoeckleys were at the urban house today. these are the times when i am reminded of how much i love my job and how grateful i am to be on staff at urban/westmont. thanks for great conversations, new ideas and fabulous food.

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

answer me this.

is it possible that the meaning of life is to know/love yourself, God, and others? if this is the purpose, are we succeeding or failing if we are really just trying to be less lonely?

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Monday, March 26, 2007

"you must take it; you are the collector."

i watched everything is illuminated. this film received an award tonight... it made my top ten list! (i don't know what's in my top ten, other than good will hunting, crash, seven, amelie, pay it forward, and.... uh, are there even ten?) anyway, it was beautiful. brilliant. thoughtful. i must remember that "the ring is not here because of us, but we are here because of the ring." and of course, "it is always along the side of us. on the inside looking out. like you say, inside out."

quote: "yesterday i bought rain boots and today it rained... it doesn't get any better than that!" later... i asked her, "you walked all the way home? from 6th and mission? up those hills!" she responded, "i had to step in all the puddles before they went away!" i have a lot to learn from you. thank you.

rusty reminded me that she never knew what she wanted, she just took each opportunity as it came. she says, "you can always quit- nothing is permanent."

earlier as i made my list of almost 99 things to do, i felt so content. when a new relationship (friendship, romantic, professional, etc) enters in my life, something else is removed. over the last eight months, it is possible that the something that might have been removed has been myself (for the most part). i sway and like the things you like, forgetting who i am and what i like. thus, making decisions that i wouldn't normally make, based on the idea of the relationship. i know how to give and give and i know not how to receive. someone, teach me how to receive. so, when the feeling of contentment came over me, i sipped the cold drink, swallowed, and exhaled. i stopped holding my breath, and felt like i was making progress. a while ago, i thought that i would do something with this "day off" that i received. when i woke up today and decided that i wasn't going to "do something" like i originally planned (take a hike, drive on hwy 1, etc), i was bummed as i made my list of errands. then, as i sat there, i realized that this is what this day was for... to realign myself, to exhale... to wash my sheets.

i have the day off today.

it is raining here, what's it like where you are?
i started my 99 item to-do list. it will show up here soon.
coffee with rusty in an hour.
i went to a job interview this weekend.
but what is it that i want?

Sunday, March 25, 2007


this photo reminds me of being uneasy. at 10:22am i wanted to puke. i felt so taken from- by my self, more than anyone else. reminded of my actions, the knot in my stomach got tense as i recalled memories of touch and sound. the feeling came back later. now i feel nervous, like the doctor is doing the routine check up, but i am resisting it. i can hear you say, "don't resist it ..feel it, emily.. just be present."

Saturday, March 24, 2007

veronica's internship.

tonight i attended the missing piece interactive art show: "an imaginative space to observe, participate, and create." basically, it was another great taste of san francisco. thank you, to the fashionista in the house: veronica, for having a kick ass internship.

Friday, March 23, 2007

thanx dr. robin.

"what we resist... persists."

Thursday, March 22, 2007

momi toby's.

cheers to good conversation re: language, death, and silence.
thank you momi toby's for being so uniquely san francisco.
pictured: renee, myself and kathryn (on the inside).

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

for you, shonna.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

yellow rain jackets...

...are so fun when they are on kids as cute as emma. today we enjoyed the walk to laurel village and shared a smoothie. spending time with this kid is one of the most wonderful things i do through out my week. note: we have matching red handbags and her rainboots are cooler than mine.

Monday, March 19, 2007

time: as of now.

work sucked.
i watched my favorite movie.

my hair is greasy.
my boss told me she's quitting.

i get to hang out with emma.
i am going to job hunt.

i feel drained. in this moment.
i can see a lot of life in you, and i think the dress looks nice on you.

Friday, March 16, 2007

four months away.

In about four months, my brother Carter will marry Courtney, who has been around since I was in eighth grade... which means it's been nine plus years! Courtney is the closest thing to a sister that I've ever had, I guess? All this really means is that I have four months to start and finish their blanket. (I started this habit of making blankets for the brothers as they tied the knot... I still haven't even finished Adam and Jenn's!) Yikes.

Thursday, March 15, 2007


dan quon and i adventured to a south-indian style restaurant tonight... dosa was fabulous. so fabulous that the chronicle rated it in the top ten restaurants of 2006. this is a photo of what i ordered, the paper masala dosa: an exceptionally thin, pliable and crispy variation served with spiced indian potatoes, onions and cashews. it was served with coconut chutney, tomato chutney and sambar, a lentil dipping soup. if you like indian food, make me take you here. also, the wait staff was great and super helpful, and the prices were just right.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

@ coffee cat

i recommend: rosie thomas' "these friends of mine" ...though it is a short almost thirty three minutes, the sounds of rosie, sufjan and dennison combined make an incredible noise, and not a negative noise, only a positive noise. should i have even used the word noise?

i have been experiencing a new set of feelings and thoughts as of late. sometimes i have no words to explain them and sometimes my words are too simple to even share.

does anyone else think it sounds like brandi carlile is saying "emily" in her song, "happy"? too bad it's "amber lee."

spent last night with my dad; so good to see him. weird to refer to him as my "dad"-- he is papa. anyway, we haven't seen each other since before christmas. sushi dinner, good conversation and one of the people that i am the most comfortable with... love it.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

you pick a title.

saw a musical on saturday: jersey boys. enjoyed the story of frankie valli and the four seasons. followed by morton's. have you ever been to morton's? i was not a cheap date; thanks parents.

bridal showers, baby showers, vegas, weddings, san diego, nephews; this summer is going to be insane.

looking forward to: sleep over with lori. dinner with my dad. wednesday night surprise. thursday morning coffee.

note to self: leaving work early is not always a good idea.

Monday, March 5, 2007


have you ever not had an agenda? not had a plan? just breathed and walked and enjoyed the loveliness that is life? i don't really do that much. i did it this weekend. i feel rejuvinated in a whole new way.

i'm listening to the 3.2.7 playlist. at thirty songs and two hours exactly, i'm taken to a place with one awkward transition ('fever dream' to 'places i already know'), but filled with the feeling of being comfortable.

today's great moment: leslie and kathryn laughing in my room.