uneasy.

this photo reminds me of being uneasy. at 10:22am i wanted to puke. i felt so taken from- by my self, more than anyone else. reminded of my actions, the knot in my stomach got tense as i recalled memories of touch and sound. the feeling came back later. now i feel nervous, like the doctor is doing the routine check up, but i am resisting it. i can hear you say, "don't resist it ..feel it, emily.. just be present."